Someone new..

Tonight, I met someone. As in someone from CV.

CV is core value training course. It's a life changing course. But back to my point.

Tonight, I met someone who I never knew or seen before. Like never. Literally never...

I was talking to my brother and then when we finish talking. I turned around and saw a guy essay taller than me or my brother just looking at me.

I look back at him and wonder if he is looking at somewhere else. Then, he waves at me with a big smile on his face like he knew me.

I smile and wave back at him. He came closer to me and just hugged me. Because that's how CV families greet each other.

Then I had to huh him back, duh.... , then I asked him for his name, obviously I don't even know his name so I should ask for it.

He said it is Alvin. When he said that he had to bend down to my eye level because he is just too tall to me. Even when he hugged me he had to bend down to. Which he doesn't seemed to mind about.

When I said okay, and assuming that he knows mine, I walked away with him trailing behind me. I didn't know what to do but I do know that when I am in a different place, I still saw him there.

Before I left, I wanted to let him know that I am leaving. I don't know why but I just felt like telling him. Which I didn't in the end. But I'm sure I'll see him soon again if destiny brings us together to meet again.

Officially a high school grad.

Hey there guys, I am back again. This time I may be back for more than just  a few days or a week. I am back until January. Yes, I am back until school reopens again. This is because I finished my school term. And I have finished my high school days already.

It seems to me that it was just yesterday we were at the beginning of the year. Yet, as I have said many times for now, time pass by fast. It doesn't wait for anyone. It just keeps walking and walking. The second hand never stops. Even if it does, the world never stops orbiting around the Sun. So we will never hide or escape from time.

I have already been accepted to the school that I am going to take my A-levels at. I am not sure about the other 3 girls who are also going there. But I think I can ask them when I see them again. If I don't then maybe I'll see to it next year. 

I look back at my days in high school. I can memorize most of the people in it. Most of the events that happened. Most of the things that happened to us. Although I did regret some of the memories, but then I treasure it. 

I take that as a lesson to be learnt. 

One of them being, don't take trust from friends for granted. I, myself, don't like being betrayed so I shouldn't be doing that to them as well. 

This is another lesson learnt. Don't do something that you don't want others to do to you. 

If friends aren't there all the time for you, they aren't the right friend for you. They are for someone else. 

What people do to you, you did the same to others before. This is just karma coming back to you.

There are sunny days, rainy days, typhoon or hurricane in friendships. But if they (or you) can't talk to each other like nothing happened at all and forget about what happened between the both of you, you are not for each other. 

If you don't take the chance, you'll never get it again. 

我是我

Sorry too lazy to retype. So i did screenshots.

身体健康

我写过一次。然后太懒惰再写一次。。。嘿嘿嘿。。。请见谅

17岁

7年过了，我还在古晋。我是七年前来到古晋的。现在还在这里。 再过两年我就要离开我的国家去别国家读书了。

7年前，我第一次来到学校，我没人好依靠。什么都靠自己。学校里每个人都戏弄我。都恨我。

6年前，我什么都不知道。朋友都不是朋友。没人是真心的对待我。朋友也跟另外一个人说不喜欢我。我是顺耳听到的。竟然被我听到我不想听到的事。那时候我多么的想立刻跑回家。明天不来学校了。但是隔一天还是低着头的来学校。

5 年前，我还是在一样的学校校。来了新学生。我还笨笨的以为自己喜欢他的哥哥。原来是暂时的喜欢而已。当时都是身边的同班同学都很喜欢看到一个男生就说喜欢的。只要是帅，好看或者适合的都会喜欢。我也被传染了。。。

4年前，那时是我在那个学校最后一年了。那时候，我也是被同班同学说不要再做朋友了。其实我都没当他们做朋友，他们就来说什么了。。奇怪。。。说我性格不好。我不改的话，他们不做我朋友。哎。。。性格是难改的啊。。
年年我都跟我的同班同学争第一，年年我都是第二。当时我跟她说可以让我第一吗？我知道她心很软的。最后她还是没让我。其实我觉得她不让我是因为第一是自己争取的。不是讨来的。那时候我真的学会了。

3年前，我换学校了。三个前同学都来找我。说“你在的时候把你当草，你不在的时候把你当宝。”那时候我的心真的碎了。她们竟然是如此的对待我。从那时候开始我就冷漠了。在学校接近我的人都会知道我是个冷漠女孩。因为如果我不冷漠的话我怕我又会被伤害。那时候每个人叫我出去陪他们玩乐的我都会说不能，不行，没空什么的。什么理由我都找得出。就是因为不要太亲切。不要太理解。那时候我只依靠着一个英文老师过日子。那时候我也写了一本书。不是因为寂寞。是因为我想写一本书来表现我写书的能力。谁知道我真的写了一本出来。

2年前，我理解的，认识的，明白的，都是自己猜测出来的。而且全部都对。都是猜测和观察出来的。厉害吧？呵呵。。 其实是我自己会的事。那时候我什么都不想管。但是最后还是管。有时我觉得自己很多话。太闲空了。所以就找事。什么都管。也是因为我想参与他们。但是我记得表哥说过的。不要参与他们，做好自己就够了。那时开始我就作为我自己。冷漠的自己。我知道自己是个很温柔，善良，爱心，得人。但是因为那些事就冷漠起来了。

1年前，我只关注我的学业。谁知道来了一个我不想认识的人。伤了我的心。我写的信，竟然会被她在我面前丢到垃圾筒里。那种感觉。。。是伤到不能伤的感觉。想象一下。你的心，被人甩到一边去。被裁，被踢。那种痛，比失去好朋友更难受。

今年，我只有一年在学校里 了。谁知道就那么快过了。我还没学够就得毕业了。

我

我心碎了。
谁来补我心呢？

我寂寞了。
谁来陪我呢？

我累坏了。
谁来照顾我呢？

我伤心了。
谁来安慰我呢？

我生气了。
谁来做我出气筒？

我饿坏了。
谁来给我做吃的呢？

我郁闷了。
谁来给我说说话呢？

我大哭了。
谁来给我擦眼泪呢？

我去世了。
谁来我的葬礼呢？

我生日了。
谁来陪我过呢？

期待的越多
得到的越少，
知道了吗？
我亲爱的朋友们。

Bday you all scorpios!!!

Sorry for the delay but got no motovation this afternoon so ended up drawing this in the end to pass some time and continue tonight.

Love you all scorpios! Stay strong and be beautiful/handsome cause you are ;-) :-P 

第一道菜永远是拿手好菜。my first time cooking dinner for myself

我的第一道菜是豆腐。上面是minced pork。豆腐下面本来是可以放白菜的。但是我没放。就算没放也是一样的好吃。只要调味调味一下就ok了。 呵呵。。