Last day of school

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL PEEPS! LAST DAY OF MY ACADEMIC YEAR IN 2012!! And I have homeworks over the holidays. Lol.. I know it is supposed to be like that because we have to revise otherwise we might forget everything we learnt this year. And then next year we have to relearn everything again when we are supposed to be learning something new.

I am going to miss Miss Karen. My english teacher. She is so cool and nice. I mean she is really cool and nice. She' s okay with us calling her first name informally outside of school. She's leaving next year. That means that the only time we get to meet her is only in Kuching Fest or concerts.

We will be like "Miss, would you like a mug of beer?" Yes, she is a party animal. A wild party animal on that. Ha ha. She's like no other Miss Karen you can find out there. Like no other... Nope.. SO RADICAL. Man, She's like an idol to me. My other insipred role model.

MISS KAREN!! I KNOW YOU AREN'T GONNA READ THIS BUT WHAT I CAN SAY IS THAT I AM REALLY GONNA MISS YOU LOADS!!

Second last day of school

Today is the second last day of school for the year. All the classes have parties and dance like crazy while my class consists of only 4 girls including me and two guys who came halfway throughout. It was really a boring day.

Despite to boredom, we played some cards and had some great laughs. Although I couldn't participate in most of the talking but it was fun just listening to other's memories we have throughout the year. Well... tomorrow is the last day and I am going to go up the stage to get an award.. "The citizenship award"

It is the second year I have the award and also the second year I am in the school... Guess I am really going to be a good citizen to the society then.. Haha.. Well, that depends right? Who knows what might happen to me in the future but we can only hope for the best.

I just got home and start to miss my friends already. Although not much of us are here, but I miss all of them deep in the bottom of my heart. Even though they are not real friends or besties, but at least they are my classmates, right? And I care for them. Therefore, I have the right to miss them as well. Lol.. I sound so retarded but just to let you know, I am. Ha ha.. I guess this is it guys after so long. Thanks for continuing reading my posts. I love you guys. I am not sure about next year if I can still keep updating like this because it is THE critical year already. So see you when I see you.

Hitz Birthday Invasion!!

Tonight is the Hitz.fm birthday invasion here in Kuching. AHHHH!!! *squeals* and all that what nots. Puh-lease lah.. I mean come on.. I know it is the hitz.fm birthday invasion but what';s the big deal. It just Chance, One bucks short, and some other bands coming to kuching to get their fans attention.

Yes, I do love hitz.fm. I do like Chance's songs. but I am not going to go over obssessed and carry him home tonight or something like that having said by a friend of mine who is "in-love" with Chance. But above all that.. I'd just rather stay back at home and write on my blog updating to you guys out there who are reading this post tonight.

Yes, Of course because I love you guys more than I love those artists. Those are called 'fan-love'. me to you? Is "unconditional love" that you cannot get from anyone else other that your lovers and your family. I don't even care if someone is going to propose to me tonight because I care more about you guys that the anonymous person that I do not know... lol.. this is going too far.

Anyways, how's it going for you peeps out there? I know it sounds insane.. but does anyone seem to notice that it is almost december? The heck with the YOLO thing. I am staying here and writing my blog even if it is 4:44 am on 21st december 2012. And I am telling you that we are going to be alive. No matter what. We are going to stay alive. Just trust me. Have faith in yourself that you are going to live through this. at least through your generation.

My Birthday

My Birthdya passed just two days ago and I forgot to even update about it.. LOL.. Come to think of it, it wasn't like any other typical Sweet Sixteen party where you party with all your friends and drink till you're drunk or anything. Mine's rather peaceful and radical.

I had a birthday dinner with my family, then we go and buy some movies and watch it at home. It was supposed to be watching like a movie marathon but we ended up watching one movie only and went to sleep because we were all exhausted... =.="

But anyways, I had a great time with my family.

My friend got me like more than one present from one person. The day after the birthday, I was gifted two other presents. I then realized that my friends can only give me what I want, but my family is the one that gives me what I need in life. They are the ones that stayed the longest by my side ever since I was born. Due to the fact that I am the youngest in the family, so yeah, they are the ones that are always by my side when I needed them. So they will always provide me with things that I need all the time.

So, my choice of celebrating my sixteenth with my family was not a bad choice after all...

Am I important to you?

It seems to me that everytime you are around with her or someone else I have become someone else to you already. Someone that you think doesn't exsit. You act like you don't even care about me. I did all I can to let you know that I am here. I replied to you. I answered your question but did you say anything? NO! Why because you are too busy making yourself busy with her.

You seem to ignorant to remember that I exist in your life. I am the one who get you things when you needed it. And what did she do for you? NOTHING! What is it that she has that I don't? It seems that everytime she talks to you, she has your full attention but when I talk, you can't even hear me properly. You always ask me to repeat myself but you never ask her to repeat. WHY are you so unfair to me?

You always ask me why am I so furious with you. Why I am so mad. Why am I this. Why am I that. You say that you care for me but the truth is do you really care for me at all? Did you even hear my cry for you when I needed you most? No you didn't because you are so busy talking to her.

Somehow she is like a devil luring you away from me. How can you do this to me? Everytime she is around I have to stand back and not even have a word spoken across. Even if I can, you won't even listen to me at all. Because she is the one that has your attention. Even if she is just whispering, I suppose you can hear her clearer than you hear me.

Exams = Student War!!!

Yes, I know that it is exams time already but I am here to post up a blog for you guys.
Yes, I know that it sounds like I am very confident in my subject, which of course I am because it is Bahasa Malaysia only for tomorrow.
Yes, I know that it is very risky for not revising even at this moment but I just want to put up a blog to let you guys that I am still alive.

Students who are reading this and having test now... Get your guns (pens and pencils) ready and ammutations (erasers) prepared. Cause we are going to go to our own CIVIL WAR WITH THE TEACHERS!!!

WE ARE GOING TO STRIKE THE BEST WITH THE BEST THAT WE HAVE TO PROVE TO THEM THAT WE ARE NOT AS STUPID AS THEY THINK WE ARE! WE ARE CLEVER! WE ARE STRONG! WE ARE RIGHT AND WE ARE GOING TO PROVE IT!

Well, that's enough of motivation but all of you out there. Just do your best that you can for you know what grades you want to get and intend to get in the end of the day. *Which I do hope it is the best that you can get*

Don't say that "oh gawd I'm gonna fail..." / "Aiya surely die one la later" or even "Eh, later let me copy arh". As a Malaysian I know that most of us would do that because we are lazy to revise so we always depend on the clever ones to give us the answers in the end of the day. There is no such thing as free lunch. If you want a good result you're gonna have to deal with it and work hard for it.

I know that my english was really Malaysian english just now, because I am speaking from a Malaysian student point of view. I know what it is like so please lah people... Study for your own sake. I am sick of giving you free answers and becoming my "good" friend when exams is near. That is not a friend. That is just a "consumer" friend only. I am sick already. Don't come and ask me for answers when you don't even know how to do because I am not giving you any more answers.

And don't blame me in the end of the day because I have warned you.... Well, technically in a way I did. SO yeah... DON'T ASK FOR ANSWERS, CAUSE I AIN'T GIVIN' ANY AWAY!!!

You again!

You came to my dreams again. This time you are rather different. Although you still have that thin, rosy lips but I could feel your skin. Your cheeks. I could almost see you but it was too dark. I could only managed to see shades of grey-ness around you. Why have you come back? Why now? What are you going to do to me? When is this never ending thoughts about you are going to end? All I could think of right now is you because you are here agian.

Why won't you show yourself? Why do you keep yourself so invinsible? Millions of why's formed in my head the morning when I had that dream of you again. Just why me? Of all the questions that I would like to ask you to answer me, I want you to answer me this first.

Why of all people you come for me? Is it coincidence or is it going to be just a dream?

I don't understand. In a dream you don't feel anything. But when it comes to you I can feel you.

The last time you came, I could feel your lips. This time around, I could feel your cheeks. You look beautiful. I don't know what words I could use to describe you but just that you are beautiful. I know you are a guy but it really is hard to find a word to describe you. I just couldn't find one word to describe your beauty properly. Sorry. But, please...

Just tell me who you are already! In all my dreams, only the ones that contains you are the ones that I can literally feel something. It sounds like realilty not a dream anymore when you come to me.

Show yourself and tell me who you are. Please.

Don't leave me hanging...

Make a difference

It takes one to make an action,

Two to make a rumour,

Three to make a story,

Four to create a history.

I’m sure that none of you have heard of that before because it was never said or it had been said by someone just in other ways.

My bio-economic teacher always tells us that it takes one to make an action. But I always ask him how it is possible? We are just students; no one will listen to us. He would reply “It takes one to make a difference, Mabel”. Mr Alex, if you are reading this which I highly doubt you would be hehe, this is for you and everyone out there.

Are you all familiar with the woman who jumped in front of a horse to get a right to vote? Well, partially it came from there. OK... Let’s be honest, the inspiration is from her and my ‘the great Mr. Alex’ teacher.

I always have a thought that how come people never listen to us for we are the new generation and we are going to take over the world after those people out there that rules the world now? We have the right to speak and tell the world what we are thinking about don’t we? Then why is no one listening to us for what we have to say? Ironic, eh? If you don’t listen to us now, when are you going to listen to our voices? You are going to have to listen to us sooner or later.  So why not now? We have things that we want to voice out but no one is willing to listen. Why? Just because we are not experienced as you are?

Yes we may be innocent to the world out there. We may not read the news or know what is going on but we do know that this world is corrupting. Not economically or about the money. But generally speaking, this world is sick already. Why is no one thinking about this? Our ideas or call out to you may sound like a mosquito at night ringing in your ear, but please at least just give our words a thought.

I am writing this post not to tell you that we teenagers like to get your full attention on us 24-7 or something. Even though some of us might, but I am writing this post to tell you all that we as teenagers also have the leadership potential inside of us. If you don’t let us speak out what we see or am aware of which you don’t? Let us remind you of what we are missing out in this world. Let us help you change the world, if you may, we are the future, and so shouldn’t we be heard as well than those who are heard all the time?