When I die

When I die, don't bury me in the ground.
For after some time, 
you would be talking to 
bones and an empty casket. 
That would be very saddening and boring 
At the same time. So don't.

When I die, don't cremate me. 
Because you would be talking 
to an urn with white powder 
of what I once was. So don't.

When I die, don't let me flow into the rivers. 
It would smell very bad. 
I don't want that to happen 
to the river. So don't. 

When I die, don't preserve my body. 
It would only be a container of 
what once contained my soul. 
Not me.So don't.

When I die, and since u don't know
what to do with me. 
Celebrate my life. 
Remember my name.
Cherish our times.
Bury me nowhere but in your heart.
Because that's where I belong.

Please don't

Please don't like me
For I am filled of scars.

Please don't like me.
For I am incapable.

Please don't like me.
For I only know pain.

Please don't like me.
For I know you'll only cause pain.

Please don't like me.
For I wish for no more.

Please don't like me.
For I want no more.

Please don't like me.
For all I know is nothing but fear.

Please don't like me.
For I know to you, I'm nothing.

Please don't like me.
For we both know you don't like me at all.

You said, And now?

You said you'll be here. 

For me and whenever I am down.

When I need a shoulder to cry on.

And now, where are you?

You said you are tired. 

Too tired to talk.

Yet, you promised to make an effort. 

But now, where are you?

You said you are getting busier.

Don't have time for me. 

And then you go on twitter and facebook chatting with people.

It's fine. But what about me?

You said you are working hard. 

Trying to save money so you can see me. 

And now you are out there somewhere doing whatsoever. 

That's all fine. But how about me?

You said all that 

You promised all that

And then your heart is not here at all. 

So what's the point?

And now I know you lie. 

Now I know you betray. 

Now I know you hurt.

Now I know you are nothing. 

I am not crying.

I am not tearing down. 

I am not breaking up.

I am not falling apart. 

BUT I am standing.

BUT I am walking

BUT I am flying

BUT i am alive.

NOW I am walking away.

NOW I am leaving.

NOW I am crushing.

NOW I am stepping on top of you. 

For I know I hurt you before 

Therefore it is fair you do the same. 

And now it's fair and square. 

I shall leave. 

Farewell.

My body, statued to the ground.
My mind, replaying things over and over again.
My soul, trembling without knowing what to do.
My heart, cracking, piece by piece.

Little did I know, you'd say those words.
Little did I know, you'd mean those words.
Little did I know, you'd own those words.
Little did I know, you'd leave me forever.

You told me, you won't leave.
You told me, you would stay.
You told me, such beautiful lies.
You told me, such painful promises.

In the end, I am left here on my own.
In the end, I am the one who fought.
In the end, I am the one who cared.
In the end, I am the fool.

Such a fool I am, to wait for you.
Such a fool I am, to listen to you.
Such a fool I am, to bid away advises.
Such a fool I am, to help you through.

No regrets, do I have for meeting you.
No pain, do I feel after letting you go.
No cracks, do you left behind on me.
No tears, do you earn from my eyes..

And now, you're gone.
And now, I'm free.
And now, you're lost.
And now, I've found my way home.

No more pain.

Heart.
Shatters all over the cold, hard ground.

Mind.
All clouded with thoughts without answers.

Body.
Unable to move. Not a single muscle.

Soul.
Nowhere to be found.

This is when I stop.
Think.

Be in peace.
Find myself again.

Gather my pieces.
Clear my mind.

Crack the frozen muscle
Capture my soul.

Once again.
Once for all.

Once and no more
No more shall I be hurt like this.

No more...
For I don't deserve this

No more...
For I deserve better.

No more...
For I am strong enough to move on.

My endless night.

My last.

When...

When I'm alone,
I reminisce
Back to the days.

The days when
I feel very
Perspicacious about my work.

The days when
I was
Obstreperous.

The times when
I desecrate
My own family.

The times when
I am
Fallacious to people.

The moments when
I disappointed
The people wjo cared for me.

The moments when
I feel so
Minuscule to everyone.

The seconds when
I felt
Asphyxiated.

The seconds when
I embarass
everyone I love

To the readers,
Who read this may
Think this is a
Dichotomy of who I am.

My impression
Is an
Illusion.

Realize it...

Sky is blue,
Grass is green,
Not everything is simple,
As it seems.

Life can be complicated.
You have to strive,
To achieve
Your goal in life.

Nothing is impossible.
It's all your thought.
Don't give up on hope,
Because there's always a choice

Relationships sometimes last.
Sometimes there's an end.
True friends will last.
Being with you till the very end.

Happiness, we plus.
Sadness, we minus.
Love, we multiply.
Hate, we divide.

Sympathy for the illegitimate born idiosyncrasy child

People feel sympathy for
the boy who
never saw his parents.

They think that he';s
never going to be
normal like the other children.

They pin-point at him,
isolate him,
stay away from him like a disease.

But I don't.

I have empathy
for that boy 'cause
he's unique.

I heard his side
and learn't he's
an illegitimate child.

His parents abandoned him
as a baby with
the foster care.

Yet he is idiosyncrasy.

Because of what he experienced
or gone through in his life
made him this special.

And he
inspired me
to live life and love my parents more.

Prosaic, Encumber, Laudable

Prosaic,
The word people used
To describe my life.
They thought I was
Always a cheerful,
Innocent and healthy child.

But I wasn't
Never was.

My life is filled with encumbers
Every corner I see,
Everywhere I go.
What made me this way,
I don't know.

But I know I have something special
A partial duplex on my left kidney,
Thyroid neurotropic symptom
And amnesia.

Yes, I don't have any symptoms of it,
I don't have depression either,
Even the doctor was surprised.
That was what made me

A laudable person
Because I treat myself like
Any other normal person
And look like anyone else.

The way home

The way back home
is a long bumpy road
The road is rocky
without a vehicle
I have to walk

Along the road
I drown myself
into my music
that I love so much
to forget the pain and fear

Growling, my stomach angers
Cursing me for not filling it up
The tall side walk grass
flows with the wind
which is the opposite way home

My hair goes wild
making me look like
a mad witch whom has
lost her broom while my feet
keeps yelling out in pain

Though there is wind
yet I still sweat
under the hot blazing sun
I grumbled with my stomach
Wishing to be home soon

But soon is when?
And when is soon?
When can I be safe
from all these bizarre things
causing my head throbbing now and then?

Unleash me

By the casement I watch,
The park and
Out to the fields
Where everyone roams
Where flowers blooms.

BY the park young
and old walked about
Intermeddling and having fun
Enjoying the warm sun
Smiling down to mother earth.

By the firelds the heifers
grazes upon the greens
MOrning dews formed and
Drank by them humming birds
that fed upon the flowers

Yet, here I am
in this lonely house
Awaiting in silence
For someone to solace
Or to be sloaced by

Though I know
that all these
were a delusion playing
Repeating in my mind
Giving me false hope

BUt I will keep waiting
Because I know
that soon
someone will come
for me. And take me home.

Homecoming

This is My land.
This is Home.
I'm home.

And here come's the home coming touchdown.
The sound of the rumble
Tyres rocking on the railway.
Kissing the road repetitively
Waking all the sleeping creatures
Sky warm and tender.
Beautifully alliging with the land and sea

Awaiting
Just for me
My feet yet awaits to kiss the ground
That I once walked on

I wait.
Waiting for it all to come to an end

When it did,
I take in my first breath
Of the air.
Of my air
Oh, my homeland air.
Hush. Listen now!
The wind is calling my name
It's telling me
"Welcome home"

The sunset does its acting cue
Putting it's best glow to show
It's gratitude for me
My return
Happy that I've finally come home.
To where I belong
Like it had always been
For ages and ages
And now, I am
Home.

Betrayal

I have no idea why but my English teacher just wants us to write something about betrayal. I totally forgot the reason why we have to write this again.

How could you?!
Leave me behind
In this place
We called home

How could you?!
LEave everything to me
Not letting me know
What's actually going on

How could you?!
Left me on cold feet
In this dark room and
This empty house alone, scared.

Why don't you
Just kill me
Now with that
Knife of yours

Why don't you
Just stay behind and
I'll pack my bags
I'll leave this place

Why don't you
Just stand right there so
You can  watch me while
I crush your heart this time.

Happy Excited Love War Peace

These words on the title up there are the words that my Irish teacher wants us to include in our poetry so I did this:

Pulse rate faster
Breathing gets harder
Heart keeps melting
This is when it's exciting

Thump, thump, thump
You make me feel so numb
My emotins get controlled by you
Ask me why I'm so happy I'd say it's you

Huff, huff, huff
I'm going out of breath
I can never win this horrible war
Can we stop this all?

Beep, beep, beep
My heart is going to flee
You make me feel so high and so low
And now I'm so in love

Serenity, calm and peace
These words comes in threes'
Thank you for loving me back
Otherwise I'd be out of track

Say thank you

Say thank you,
When you recieve something from others.
Let them know that you appreciate what you recieve from them.
Let them know that you are grateful of it.

Say thank you,
When you finish eating,
To the chef who cooked, be it mother or maid or someone else.
Let them know that you are happy with the food that they served you with.

Say thank you,
When you are paying,
To the cashier who gives you the change,
Let them know that you are happy with what you bought.

Say thank you,
When you are in school,
To the teacher who taught you something,
Let them know that you are grateful with what you have learnt.

Say thank you,
In everything you do,
Be positive about life,
Then you can recieve positive things back.

我的诗

农夫啊农夫，
我说您是否伟大。
您种的米是够您家人吃
还够卖给自己国家和别国。
让所有人都填饱三餐不挨饿。
了不起啊了不起。

工人啊工人，
我说你是否用工。
太阳公公那么热大，
您的身体都是汗水珠，
您还是能够继续的做工。
看来风雨雷劈都难不过您啊。

父亲啊父亲，
我说您是否强壮，
像工人一样您在外头
拼命的做工赚钱回来养家。
辛苦你了啊父亲。

母亲啊母亲，
我说您的爱是否伟大。
像个农夫一样您每天都会
先为了我们这些孩子们找想。
深怕我们会挨饿或生病之类的，
直到自己生病了也不知道啊。

兄弟姐妹啊，
我说你们是否辛福，
身旁都有人照顾你们，
外头有阿姨叔叔关心你们。

你们都看见了吗？
听见了吗？
感到了吗？
这是爱。
无条件的爱。
用金钱也买不回来的爱啊。
要好好珍惜啊。

不要生在福中不知福啊。
不见了就不见了，
没了就没了，
讨不回的。
明白吗？

Sometimes in life

Sometimes in life;
We get insulted by others.
We should just get on with it and
move on. Because it is not worth to
be angry over things that we will get everyday

Sometimes in life;
We get put down by others.
It's ok. It happens every once in a while
it is something that we will have to experience
everyday in the society and when we go to work for money.

Sometimes in life;
You feel sad and lonely,
thinking that no one is around
you, but hey, I am still here. I will
always open my arms and lend you my
shield to keep you safe. And give you warmth

Sometimes in life;
You get peer pressured and
get involved with things you shouldn't.
Don't worry. I won't let you do that. I will
be there and stop you before you even try to take
it. Because I care. I may seem to be nosy to you in the first
place. But I understand, you are pressured because you want to be
like them. Just remember, Be yourself, and you don't have to be afraid anymore.

Sometimes in life;
you might think that you
are having trouble and have
no one to look for to help you because
all your friends have deserted you. They are
not your real friends. IF they are, they would stand by you
But, it's ok. I am here. Just come to me and I will go through it with you
I can't go through it for you because it is your problem but I will guide you through

My dear friend, in life, there are times when things go out of hand, or when things are in control and in happiness. Don't forget me. Because I have been there for you all the times. I am always there for you. You may have left me when you don't need me or am not in trouble. Or you may have forgotten me because you don't need me anymore. Just remember, I understand. Because I am a friend to you. Just like any other friends, I care and love you. I don't ask anything from you. I just ask you not to forget me and appreciate my existence. For when I am gone, I will never be back anymore.

Sincerely,

the one who is left out at the corner.

the one who will never leave you.

the one who is there for you.

the one who cares for you.

the one who accepts you.

the one who loves you.

The real friend.



Gone...

Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you remember me when I'm gone?
Will you think about the tmemories we share when I'm gone?
Will you apply my advice into your life when I'm gone?

I'm not sure if you would cry over my absence,
Neither am I sure that you are going to miss me beside you
Will you?
That I don't know for sure

Have I influenced you enough to make you think
about me when I'm gone?
Have I done enough to make sure
that you are going to be fine when I'm gone?

My dear friend,
All these answers can only be answered by you
But will you walk the talk?
I don't know

Becuase only you will know what you will do.