The speech competition

Have I told you about the speech competition? Well, today was the finalist round. I got inot the impromptu speech but i didnt get the positions in 1, 2 or 3. Which is fine with me because I don't really mind about winning. All i mind about is having fun. It doesn't really matters if you win or lose. If you lost, it is a blessing. Because you learn something in return. If you win, you are just the winner for that few minutes. or that moment.

The impromptu speech is about white is white, black is black, let's not argue about that. When i went up there all i talk about is the colour difference. i didnt talk much about what the topic is really trying to make us say. the topic actually wants us to talk about that white can also be black while black can also be white.

actually it wants us to tell everyone that the fact can be disorianted sometimes. sometimes fact can change itself to something else.sometimes fact may not be the fact. and i didnt spoke on that. i did spoke about the colours but i should go deeper and more into the life examples. oh well everything is over now. i still have next year to go. and next year i shall strive. NEVER GIVE UP is my family name.

I am going to a speech competition!

Hey guys. How are all of you out there? I am great here.. He he. I wish that all of you are fine out there too. All the best to wherever you are. Whatever state you are in and however you all are. I am sure that I told you guys about the debating competition I been last year didn't I? Well, I did last year and this year too. This year no one went but me from my school. Everyone complains that it is on a Saturday. And the teacher who is supposed to bring us there doesn't have the time to bring us there. However I still went because of my burning passion in debating. I could feel my confindence and enthusiasim build at once when I heard the word 'debate' itself.

Well, next week I am going to a speaking comepetition. It is going to be held outside of school of course but with other schools. I have a friend who is a first-runner up in toast-mastering going with me.  I am sure that I can nail the place down! HE HE. MUAHAHAHA!!! *ze-wicked-smile plastered on my face*

Wish me luck guys. I am going to win this for you guys. IF not, at least I get a position for you all out there. I can do this. GO MABEL!!! *fist pump* Love yall!!!

Don't, I don't, But, Because, and It is

Don't ever leave me hanging,
Don't ever make me waiting,
Don't ever make me worry,
Don't ever cause the crying.

I don't want to be left alone,
I don't want to waiting for things that will never happen,
I don't want to worry so much till my frown shows,
I don't want to be the one crying.

But for you I am willing to be alone
But for you I am willing to wait,
But for you I am willing to worry
But for you I am willing to cry.

Because you are different from the others
Because you are special to me
Because you are the only person I have,
Because you are worth it.

It is all over now,
It is not going to happen again,
It is not repeating itself,
It is never another you anymore.

And this is going to end,
Right here,
Right now.
Good bye

I admit

I admit I done my best
To try to impress you
I know I’m not worth it
I am nothing compared to you

I admit I lied to you
But that wasn’t what I intended to do
All I wanted to do
Was show you what I am capable of

I admit I’m not a good joker
Instead I’m a loner
Could I just see you smile
One minute or a while

I admit I want to make you proud
But it turned out to be other way around
I have done what I could do
Still I’m not good enough for you

I admit I did stupid things
I know that it sounds silly to you
But that was the only way
To get you laughing out loud.

I admit I am not like you
Because I am never you
And I can never be another you
I guess I just can't be the one for you

Because of you

Because of you
My heart is broken
Smashed into billions of pieces
And it cannot be fixed anymore

Becasue of you
I am a fallen
A single working things out.
Listening to pitiness around me

Because of you
I learnt to be angry, depressed and sad.
I become someone I don't know anymore
I am no longer who I am

Because of you
I now know how to move on
I am stronger
I am not as firgile as you left me

Because of you
I fought for love
I stand my rights
Held what was mine

Because of you
I am a new me
People respect me
People love me

And now you are crawling back
Wishing that you can have one more chance
Hoping that I will forgive you
And forget the scars you made on my heart

But guess what?
I am not the same person anymore
I may love you but it is loved now
The only reason I see you every now and then is because you are in my way or stalking me

I'll just leave you...

I am sorry if I make you sad,
I am sorry if I make you mad.
I am sorry if I break your heart,
I am sorry if I make it apart.

I didn't meant for it all to happen,
Not even from the start,
I wish you will forgive me,
But things cannot go back to the start.

I don't want to hurt you at all,
Hurting you is the last thing to do,
I don't want to make you sad,
Because seeing you sad just makes me feel guilty.

I blame myself even though it isn't my fault,
I don't want you to be mad because of something I said.
I am sorry can we restart?
It is ok if you don't want to.

I send you messages that you never reply.
I guess it is because you are still mad at me.
Of what I said,
Of what I did.

I am sorry for bringing so much trouble to you,
I promise I won't be of any trouble to you anymore.
I guess I will just leave you alone then.
That way you can have your peace.

I never thought that you would be mad,
When I told you about that.
I won't do it again,
Because there won't be another next time.

As promised I won't find you again,
As promised you can feel peace and calm.
I guess I don't understand you much at all.
What kind of person am I then.

As promised you don't have to worry about me,
As promised you can feel free.
Without me in your hair,
Without me in your life.

How about us?

Every now and then people around the world is doing something. These things are such as: Making up a realtionship. Reading something off the newspaper. Watching the television. Eating. Sleeping. Dying. Walking in the park. Having a memorable time. Facing a challenge. And many others that I haven't stated. BUT have we ever thought about what about us? What are we doing? What are you doing? Other than breathing, circulating your blood, staying alive, reading this article. What are you doing? I know that you are reading this but there is a question behind this article.

Have you thought about your future? Have you thought about what you are going to do if you are dying? Have you thought about what difference you can make with the time you have? Have you thought about the people around you and how you can influence them better in a good way? Have ytou thought about changing the way you interact with the poeple around you if it is not good? Have you thought about what you are going to do for the rest of your life? The big question here is, have you ever, just ever give a single thought about what you can do for your future? And if there is something going wrong what can you do now to change the situation?

Let's be honest to ourselves here. You don't have to admit whether you did or didn't thought about it at all. You know the answer for those questions yourself deep inside you. There is no one there to say that "Hey, you have to think that way." or "No, you should have it this way otherwise..." You have to know that this is your life you are dealing with. No one can, have, could, will, would, or even had planned/ plan it for you. People may have plan it for you but you are the one to make the choice of you want it to be that way or not. If you just follow blindly on what people planned for you then, I am afraid to say that you are living your life for another person but not yourself.

If you did think about those questions before, I would be thanking God. Ha ha. What I mean is that if you did, it wouold be great. However, have you put it to action? If you dont realize, the future starts the next second, the next minute, the next hour, and whole lot of nexts. The present is now. The past is before. You have now to act on what you think about. You have now to wake up from the unawareness. You have now to see the world in a better view. All you have is now. Nothing more. You can have the future later. The past is gone already.

Never look back to the past and regret. The more time you waste on regreting, the lesser possibility of you moving forward. Regret to me is another definition of self- pity. At least, that is what it mean to me. To you, it might be a different thing. You only look back to realize the mistake you did and correct them by starting to do it differently from now on. Because like I said, you only have NOW. The future is later. Ever heard of a quotation of "The seed of the future starts from now"? It works like that. And I hope you understand what I am trying to tell you here.

Unique people

Have you ever noticed that people are always different from you? Always acting not like the way you want them to be? And you seem to always have something to talk about that person with your friends or someone that you want to create a conversation with? Have you ever realise why they are like that? Ever ask yourself why people are different from you? Well, the great and wise Mabel here can answer that for you.

The reason why people are different from you is because that is how they should be and how they are created or born to be. That is who they are and you can never change that. Because you are not the one who is playing God here. And to state the obvious you are not God. You don't get to choose how people look, act, laugh, talk, smile, breath, live and so on as the list goes on and on. YOU don't get to choose it because you are not them!

You are not them and never will be them. WHY? That will be the silliest question you might wanna ask because you are only given one life. You cannot go back to your mother's womb and be reborn again. NO, and that is just sick! You can only live your own precious life. No one else's but yours.

The truth about not bring able to control people's life is because if you do control them then everything will be under control and you can interpret what the other person is going to do in the next second or minute. Then there will be nothing to talk about anymore. You don't have to talk anymore and the world will be in complete silence because everyone knows what other wants.