When...

When I'm alone,
I reminisce
Back to the days.

The days when
I feel very
Perspicacious about my work.

The days when
I was
Obstreperous.

The times when
I desecrate
My own family.

The times when
I am
Fallacious to people.

The moments when
I disappointed
The people wjo cared for me.

The moments when
I feel so
Minuscule to everyone.

The seconds when
I felt
Asphyxiated.

The seconds when
I embarass
everyone I love

To the readers,
Who read this may
Think this is a
Dichotomy of who I am.

My impression
Is an
Illusion.

Realize it...

Sky is blue,
Grass is green,
Not everything is simple,
As it seems.

Life can be complicated.
You have to strive,
To achieve
Your goal in life.

Nothing is impossible.
It's all your thought.
Don't give up on hope,
Because there's always a choice

Relationships sometimes last.
Sometimes there's an end.
True friends will last.
Being with you till the very end.

Happiness, we plus.
Sadness, we minus.
Love, we multiply.
Hate, we divide.

Flexibility

I was just listening to my music on my computer and singing those songs to myself but what I didn't know was that the song was a remix. Then I remembered that I got these songs from a friend of mine. What surprised me is that those songs are actually nice in the remix version as well. I decided to keep quiet and listen to the new remix version. 

That hit me completely, in a sense that we all have to be spontaneously flexible once in a while with life. We can't have our life all planned, which I just learnt today, because we don't know the future. Even if we plan everything, it may go our way for a few while, but then there is always something that makes your plan to go sideways or off the track because you don't know what might be in the future. 

You can plan for the major things in life, but you can't plan for everything in detail. As in, you can't plan for tomorrow and have everything in time with a schedule because you can't always be sure that the weather might not interfere with your schedule. 

You just have to expect something to happen sometimes because the most unexpected thing might happen and become the best thing that ever happen to you in your life. But there are things that might bring the worst out of you. Which is why we all have to be flexible and go with what life has planned for us. 

Live like we're dying

Has anyone of you heard of the song "Live like we're dying by Kris Allen"? I am sure some of you have. It is an old song actually. I was listening to it just now and I thought about the song itself.

People say to live like we are dying then you will know how to live life the proper way or something like that. Actually we don't have to live like that. We can live like we are living and appreciate things in our lives. The whole concept of living like we are dying is actually just another way of saying that we have to be grateful for everything that we have now.

The way they call it, live like we're dying, actually sounds rather depressing on my opinion. Why not we just use words like appreciate the life we have now while we live it? Wouldn't it be better? Why can't we rephrase that word?

Why do we as human beings like to use such words to make our sentences?

Wouldn't using a more lightening words better?

Doesn't it sounds better?

Doubts?

What do you mostly think about when you are in doubt, let say in a relationship?

When you have doubt it means that you are not trusting enough to your partner (in any relationship you are in). Why are you not trusting? Why don't you trust the other?

Have we all forgotten the rules of a relationship? It all started with trust. You trust that your partner will love you back, treat you nice, stay loyal to you, be faithful to you.

The other reason that you may not trust your partner enough could be that you don't have enough trust in yourself. Think about it. They say that 'To love, you have to be love'. So I am rephrasing it with trust this way. "To trust another, learn to trust yourself."

I know that the generation that we live in now is hard to be trusting to another. Especially in a partnership relationship of any kind. Marriage, boy/girlfriend or even friendship. It is hard to trust now because the generation of our people have changed.

Not everyone can let themselves out to the whole world without feeling that they are being judged by another. Because everyone has a reputation to keep. That will be another story another post. But why can't you be trust so others can learn to trust you first?

Change starts with us, ourselves, not others. If you try to force someone to change, you will just end up getting g a headache and stress. So exclude the stress and let them learn to change by seeing the change in you first.

What matters?

What really matters most doesn't really matters sometimes. What's more important is what is the intention behind the thing that matters to you.

To me, my family matters to me the most. Because in the end of the day, they are the last one there for me when the whole world turned away from me. They are the first one to talk to regarding advices that you can relay on.

Family is very important because they are the ones that you selected to be with before you came to earth. They are always there even if you don't want them to be. They are the best friends that you have ever since birth.

They care for you no matter what happens, and always love you even if you think that you are a burden to them. They support you in all ways. When they don't they have their own reasons.

You can tell them everything you want about yourself and your problems and still see them there the next morning. Because, where else can they go? You are all living under the same roof (or not), still in the end of the day you are family. You can't run away from that.

Family is also the shelter from problems you have with the society. The home that you can always be in. The source of love to look for. The place where you can feel safe the most. Like it or not, they are still family and they are not going anywhere at all.

That is why family matters most to me. What about you?

Light and Dark

"Be the light that shines you the road, Not the dark that makes you doubt where you go." Mabel.

We are all light once. But we somehow fall into darkness because no one was there to stop us or hold us back and bring us back to the road. Not to say there wasn't just that there was someone that calls for us to come back to the river bank but we werent aware enough to listen carefully or hear their voices because we are too deep in it already.

This is how we ard in life sometimes. We mostly takes things around us for granted. Most of the times at this generation, teens would probably be the ones that takes most of the things for granted.

We take our lives for granted and say yolo for the times when you know you are doing something that is stupid or might hurt yourselves or health but you did it anyways. Why? Because yolo! You think that you only live once and should do everything while you can but I'm telling you when you can't get up on your bed or even talk anymore, that is the time you'd be reflecting why you did those things and believed in yolo so much. That is the times when you think that you should not have done it otherwise you'd be a happy person still being able to walk and talk.

Life may be only for once. But health is not a thing to say yolo so easily over. Just because yolo doesn't mean you should get high and OD over. You wanna die like that then go ahead. But I'm telling you first. You're not gonna like your funeral. Cause you may look normal but when the kind of face you have when you die is going to be the face you're carrying into your grave.

Stop drugging yourself. It's already a bad thing and lots of people already OD or died over it already. I don't want you to be the next one too.

The way home

The way back home
is a long bumpy road
The road is rocky
without a vehicle
I have to walk

Along the road
I drown myself
into my music
that I love so much
to forget the pain and fear

Growling, my stomach angers
Cursing me for not filling it up
The tall side walk grass
flows with the wind
which is the opposite way home

My hair goes wild
making me look like
a mad witch whom has
lost her broom while my feet
keeps yelling out in pain

Though there is wind
yet I still sweat
under the hot blazing sun
I grumbled with my stomach
Wishing to be home soon

But soon is when?
And when is soon?
When can I be safe
from all these bizarre things
causing my head throbbing now and then?

Unleash me

By the casement I watch,
The park and
Out to the fields
Where everyone roams
Where flowers blooms.

BY the park young
and old walked about
Intermeddling and having fun
Enjoying the warm sun
Smiling down to mother earth.

By the firelds the heifers
grazes upon the greens
MOrning dews formed and
Drank by them humming birds
that fed upon the flowers

Yet, here I am
in this lonely house
Awaiting in silence
For someone to solace
Or to be sloaced by

Though I know
that all these
were a delusion playing
Repeating in my mind
Giving me false hope

BUt I will keep waiting
Because I know
that soon
someone will come
for me. And take me home.

Hey, hey hey!

Hey, guys. It is and was labour day. So happy labour day to you all out there.

This is the day when the workers or the people get to rest and enjoy their day off for their hard work and doings for us. Let's give them workers a big round of applause for their hard work. They had done lots of things for us and so we have to have a day for them too right?

they are also supposed to be appreciated as well. In fact, though I am not a worker yet on my own but I do know that every one of them had done a big influence in our lives. Without them, we could be having troubles with our lives now.. Why? Because they are the best ever! They made things for us so our lives are simplified. Thanks to them now we can have more simpler and easier lifes.

Thank you workers. Happy labour day!!!

Key of happiness

Each and everyone of us holds the key of happiness inside of us. It is up to us where do we place the key of happiness or who do we give it to hold unto. It is best if we can just keep the key to ourself. That way we don't have to worry about who is controlling our happiness. This also can prevent ourselves from being negative all the time.

When we give others to hold onto our key of happiness, it clearly is putting expectations on others to make us happy. That means that we are depending on others to make us happy. This also gives others the advantage to make us feel something else other than happiness. It shows that others have the privillage to make you go down anytime. Because they get to pull out or take back the key from your heart and keep it in a safe.

It is best to keep it to ourselves. Why? This way, we don't have to worry about someone else taking it away from us. We don't have to depend on others to make us happy. We can be independent and be happy ourselves. We don't need someone to make us happy. Because being happy is a choice. We can choose to be happy anytime we want to be. We don't need someone to control our lives needless to say our emotions.

So, people out there! Where did you put your key? IF it is on someone else, why not take it back and be responsible for your own happiness? Don't let someone else control your emotion. We are the owner of our lives. So be the person to make yourself happy. And be the leader of your life! Be happy, Stay happy.

H7N9

ATTENTION TO MY DEAR FRIENDS OUT THERE!! PLEASE HAVE A READ!! SAVE LIVES!

Have you heard of the recent H7N9 bird flu in China? Well, it is actually because of the spraying of a kind of cleaning detergent or something on the cages and the chickens happened to be the victims of it. Now the whole China doesn't eat poultry at all. Why? Because it is not healthy anymore.

Though we chinese people eat loads of protein from chickens and ducks but it seems like the business of poultry is going down. And therefore, we all have to become vegetarians soon. As you can see there is a new virus called H7N9 is developing. And it is developing really fast!! SO please becareful of what you are eating.

Although the frozen ones are still on sale, but it is best we avoid it as we don't know if they are infected as well or not. They may not be affected but it is still for the better to avoid them as well. Okay? And it has come down to Vietnam where they have H5N1 already. Soon and every soon each and every poulrty is out of business. And we don't have anymore meat to eat. No more protein from chickens or ducks but maybe from other animals.

However, I would suggest to turn into a vegetarian or become one. As I assume that soon everything or any animal would be harmful to us already. And I also heard that H3N2 is around. Or something like that. Just becareful out there okay? Stay healthy and be aware of what you consume.

The best food we can eat now is organic food or anything that is vegetarians. Because it is the best option we have now and the best choice we have. Stay healthy people!

13th April

Today or shall I say this week is the not a very pleasent week for me. I felt things that I shouldn't be feeling. I am broken once again for reasons that aren't reasonable enough to explain why. I should have seen it coming. 'It' was warning me already... 'It' was already telling me not to come yet I forced myself to go. 'It' warned me not to go. Yet, I went. 'It' already made me feel uncomforatble inside. Warning me not to go because something is about to happened but I just have to go...

It is my friend's birthday today. Turn out to be a rough day for him. I knew that something is about to happen. And it was a bad thing. Not something that we all wanted. But I just ignored it. Thinking that it was just me. Thinking that it is going to be fine. I just had to be that rebelious. I just had to. Because I just want to hang out with my friends but in the end it ended up badly.

This is my punishment. This is what it has done to me. Now 'it' is lecturing me. Telling me that it told me so but I didn't listen to 'it'. Why? Am I just too selfish? Do I just have to make things go bad then I am satisfied? I am selfish am I? Knowing that something bad is about to happen and I just went on with it. Why do I just have to be selfish?

AM I SELF BLAMING NOW? OR DO I LEARN A LESSON FROM HERE? DO YOU? I'M SURE I DO...

Giving back to the world

Have you ever raised the question about how do you give back to the world?

Have you ever asked if you have given back to the world?

Have you ever think about how you can contribute back to the world that you have taken so much from?

Does these questions ever cross your mind before? I am sure it never did right? Well, maybe it did to some of you but not all. Right? Well, if it never did, then you have to start thinking about it already. If you already did, then you should start think about it already. Why you ask? Because it is about time we think about the world already.

Doesn't it concerns you if the world is going through climate change right now?

Doesn't it concerns you if the world is facing all sorts of global warming problems?

Doesn't it comes to make you think otherwise about what we are doing to the world already? If you haven't start thinking about it. IF yolu already have, then start making a difference. If you already started making a differencve, then is it working? Are you practicing your work?

Think about it. It's time you think about something already. Something that has to do with you and the world. Not judging whether you have done enough or anything. Just pure thinking about what you can do...

Never had an enemy = never really lived

"If you never had an enemy, it means that you have never really lived your life." -Anonymous

That was something that I've heard from somewhere and I forgot whom was it who said it so I placed that person "Anonymous" so that I don't get the wrong person.

Well, just because someone doesn't have any enemies doesn't mean that they never lived their life before... But it just means that they are a peacemaker or something. Either that or they probably have already lived their life and gone through the circumstances to make people not hate them. Not saying that they please them or anything. But they just have that charm to make everyone not hate them at all.

People like... me! I don't have any enemies. Even though I sometimes think I do, but it just so happened in a way that no one hates me at all. Why? Because I have a way to make people not hate me. How? Not to hate others in the first place. If you hate another, then surely you would show up as hate. Then, this will just make another person to hate you. Get the meaning of starting the fire and it will come right back to you? That is how it works as well.

Yeah, I know. You are probably saying something in front of the computer right now as you are reading. Or you may not. Just assuming.... But then, you don't know what had that person gone through. So you can't say that they don't have a life just because they don't have enemies. They just somehow made friends with their own enemies.

Have peace man. Isn't the war outside great enough for you already? Or the drama of the world entertaining for you? Why bother making people hating you when you just wanna live your life? Guess I will never understand that concept. But then, here we go. The drama starts to kick in.

Easter Day

Hey guys, guess what? It's Easter Monday as well. Lol.. I didn't realize it at all at some point until in the morning i got a text message telling me that it is Easter Day. SO Happy Easter to those who celebrates Easter Day. Enjoy your chocolatey easter egg hunt. Just don't get mushed up with the real eggs and the chocolate eggs otherwise you might end up buying eggs in the supermarket rather than joining in the egg hunt for chocolates... If you get what I mean.. I suppose you don't. But never mind. That's kinda like an inside joke only me and some people would know. Lol..

For Christians, Happy Resurrection Day. If I am not wrong becasuse Friday was Good Friday so today must be Ressurection Day right? Please forgive me if I got it wrong because I only remember that Jesus died on the cross on a Friday and he woke up on a Monday. Somewhere in the Bible it says so.... Or I am wrong again? Ah, well. But at least in my mind Bible it says so... Hehe.. :P sorry to mess it up for you people. And I mean no disrespct though. But still happy ressurection day to all of you. And if it isn't then I guess, I need to check with my calendar again. Something wrong with it... *blush*... Anyways, either ways. God Bless You All!!

And for the rest of the world... What can I say to you? Let's see... Oh yeah. It's Monday. Which is a monday blue day or a moanday and you moan when you say your moarning...? But still Cheer up, kay? It's a new month. And a new day. It meanst a new start of life chapter. Let go of the past. Let bygones be bygones and may it never make you regret. For it is your choice that leads you to who you are today and what you are becoming to in the future.

Students, some of us are luck enough to have an "off"day shall we say from school eh? Hehe.. So what did you do today? Prank your friends that there is school today and then they turn up at school when everyone is not there? Let them think that they are early for school today or something eh? Hey, come on.. It's April Fool day.. What can you lose? It's just for fun. But don't do it too much a'ight? Don't get yourself into trouble now.

Yoga??

Today is the second time I went for a yoga sesssion. AND guess what??!!! I didn't really liked it.

At first, I thought yoga is supposed to be relaxed and make you feel calm and all that. But I was wrong. It was more of the opposite. OR maybe it was just me because I am not a very active person. And I don't do much stretching excercises.. =.= That sounds lame.. Cause teenagers my age supposed to be very active in everything like sports or hanging out. BUT me? If I have my computer, I have my world.

That sounds like some of you out there too huh? Well, if you are... You need some yoga too. Though I don't really like it but I suggest you go do some yoga NOW!!! Cause it is just the first few times you might feel like your muscles are sore and you don't feel like doing it the next day. But trust me. It is going to be a great outcome to you in the future.

Let's not wait until we are saying that we have some bad backs and spine problems to deal with it. We have to deal with it now!!! I know it is going to be very painful and all that whining and crying over a stretch of your muscle cause you just can't get the pose correct. While others can do it just fine and feel like it is easy.

So whomever that is out there, having a kind of life that is like me. Which is
------------------------>>>>>> Computer = World, World = Computer <<<<<<<---------------------------
You and I my friend, got some yoga to do. Don't whine just shine. I know you can do it. I am signing off here tonight. See ya next time. (>.^) *WInks*

Think alike or not?

"Think alike like me and we can agree, think unlike me and we will never get anywhere."   -Mabel

 

Do you know why people take sides? It isn't because they are being bias to someone else. It isn't because they like that person more than the other. It isn't because they have a thing for that person. It certainly isn't because they think that the other is winning the conversation or the debate.

 

Do you even want to know why at all? The secret is they think alike. When some people are thinking like the same, they will always go to any level of conversation easily and talk together at the same way all the time.  When people think alike they can be ups and downs, high and low. Anywhere they go they are the same until they reached a point when they don't think the same and the other convice the other to be at the same level as them again.

 

Do you want to know how people succeed in business? This is their secret. The employer has a good relationship with their employees. Not the kind of realtionship that you and your very love one share, but then I mean that the kind of boss-employee relationship.

 

You have to allign your team before you do what your business is like. Before you think about opening your business, you have to make sure that everyone in your team is allign with the intention or what you are selling. The other thing is that you have to know what you are selling.

 

Service? Then ask yourself, what kind of service are you selling to the people? Who are you selling those service to? How are you going to sell your service? Are you ready for the questions that you are going to recieve? Are you ready to hear what they have to say about your service? Do you service sellers ever ask yourself that? Or do you just do what you are supposed to do so you get your salary in the end?

 

I may just be a normal student and I don't take business studies so I don't know much about business. BUT what I do know is that, if you want to success, know how to allign your team first. Know your intention behind everything before you start to do something.

You're beautiful

You are beautiful do you know that? Do you know that you are beautiful because there is no one else to define what is beautiful. I don't know why some girls would say "Yeah, as if" when someone says that they are beautiful while someone else is like "Yeah, I know right?" Even though I am also like the one who says that "Yeah, as if" but I don't really do it all the times.

When I tell someone that they are beautiful in my area, they would say "Thank you." However, people from another country or place, they would say "Pfft, right." I mean like, why don't you want to be called beautiful? I really don't get it.. Everyone can be beautiful. There is no definition of real beauty because there is no one to compare your beauty. Even if you are a twin, your inner beauty is also different from him or her.

So people, when someone tells you that you are beautiful, just say "Thank you" because you are beautiful. No one is ugly. Everyone has their own beauty. Even if it is not really beautiful, you will always look beautiful to someone. Your family. Your true lover.

A new begining

Life always starts with a begining and ends with an end. But what is the begining? When is the end of everything? We never get to know when do we have a begining because we don't know when to call it a new begining. We don't have an end without a beginging so how do we know when do we end?: You get what I mean?

To be honest with you, without a begining there is no end. If you don't have a beginging, and you don't have an end... then where are you? Have you every asked yourself where you are now in life? Have you ever wondered?

I know that I am in the middle of life when I have to learn to be more independent and learn as much as I can to get a scholarship in order to save money and go to a nice university. But some people who are at my age still have no idea of what they are doing now. They are living their life like a puppet played by a puppeteer. But their puppeteer has not an idea of what they want to do with their puppet as well. So it is like a middle of nowhere...

Do you see where I am going with this post now? If you still don't know, then I would have to say that I am not so good in writing my posts and leading people blind.. Yeah, I do admit I am not good in telling people what I actually mean sometimes. But, I guess I should just go with the real message behind this whole post.

What I really want to say is that,
Are you clear of what you are doing? Do you know why are you doing so or is it because someone ask you to do it. Have you got any intentions for yourself in life? Have you sorted out what you want to do for your own life already? Or are you just limping around the place, without an idea of what is going on and just doing what people are telling you to do?